I saw a story where Chrissy Teigen was shamed for eating this Fruity Pebble & Cap’n Crunch combo while pregnant. I figure if it’s good enough for her it’s good enough for me.
When I found out I was pregnant I was in the middle of preparing for a beach vacation to the Dominican Republic. I was working out at lunch each day, had given up most of the treats and was really seeing progress in muscle definition. I am average weight. No one has ever accused me of being overweight or fat, although I have been overweight before.
I have been unhappy with my size since the 7th grade, with the exception of the summer of 1994. The first year of college with its all hours of the night eating, study pizza and beer had left me pudgy. I started walking every day and was very toned and slim when I went back for my sophomore year. That brief moment lasted maybe a month, otherwise my weight has been an issue in my head.
To be honest, I’m thankful for it. I have never gotten too close to an unhealthy relationship with food on either side of that slippery slope. I don’t binge eat to feel better, nor do I starve myself. If I let myself get out of whack, I can usually rein it back in pretty easily.
But this pregnancy has proven to be a little more difficult for me. My head is very unhappy with the weight I have gained. My doctor says I’m right on track. Most people have said very little about my size, although there is one exception of someone who told me I was looking really big, twice. But the person who has the most to say about my weight gain is me.
Logically, I know that I’m right on track. The first trimester I ate whatever sounded good because I gagged at the thought of lots of foods. But in the second trimester I have found my rhythm again. I’m able to eat like a normal person.
My daily diet is pretty simple, plain Greek yogurt with fresh berries and a sprinkle of nuts, a turkey sandwich (yes, I consulted my doctor. He said go for it.) for lunch sometimes chips, sometimes fruit, and my husband makes me dinner at home most nights. But as you can see by the picture, I do still have the occasional treat.
I remember when I was working in my twenties and one of my co-workers became pregnant. She told me then you really only need 300 extra calories a day to support a growing pregnancy. As I lifelong calorie counter that really stuck out to me. That’s one extra small snack a day. A far cry from the eating for 2 mantra I had heard before.
I am not counting calories during my pregnancy, but I do wish I could get this voice in my head to relax a little. The worry is not really about what I look like during pregnancy, that part is inevitable, it’s the climb to get back to looking like my old self after the baby arrives that has my brain working overtime.
So I have a plan. It’s what I do when I face a problem that keeps me up at night. Whatever is stressing me out gets a plan of action, whether work, kiddo or weight.
First, I’m going to continue to eat like I am now and before the pregnancy for those first several months. Remembering the last go round, there will be a multitude of mini Halloween candy bars around my home. I’ll need to remember they are treats and not my main food supply. Drinking lots of water and enjoying my baby is the first order of business.
Once I pass the zombie phase (however long that might take, I’m hoping a 3 or 4 months), I’ll start cutting down the treats. Kick up the veggie intake and continue with the water.
Hopefully, as the New Year starts I’ll be able to take baby for walks in the park with his brother. Or go for a walk after an early morning feeding before work.
My hope is by this time next year that I am looking like my normal self. I don’t think anyone will be knocking down my door asking me to model bikinis, but that’s okay by me. My goal is to feel healthy, strong and happy in my own skin.
On that note, it’s time to eat.